April 1, 2012 is my deadline!!!
33192) I’m sick of feeling like the largest person out of my group of friends. They all say I look fine, but I can’t believe them. I don’t want to look fine. I want to look skinny. These feelings are consuming my life
Ana is becoming my best friend, I have never felt more alive or more in control. I am no longer a slave to food.
I revel in the fact that I can make fatty meals for my family and not once take a bite. Thank you Ana
I feel so alone. I told my husband about all of my issues and he acted like it was no big deal. I’m relieved that I don’t have to hide it but at the same time I’m so alone. Now all I want to do is get sicker so he will actually care and pay attention to me.
I cut because I hurt. The pain was too much to deal with today. I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough.
I just ate dinner and I am so pissed. Why can’t I just have self control, I want to be skinny more than anything. FML!!!
First full day of fasting! I feel great, better than when I would only eat 300-400 calories. Which is so weird but I’ll take it. The longest I have ever gone is 2 weeks I’m hoping to go longer this time around. I am also finding out things about my eating habits. I eat because I’m bored, I crave a lot of junk and usually give in. I don’t even have to be hungry if it sounds good I want it. That’s how I have been my entire life, no wonder I’m a fatty mc fat face.
